I thought I could outrun You.
I thought that after all this time that You and I could be nothing but nostalgia-
Of things I’ve learned and moments I’ve earned.
I thought your firm hold
Your hands around my neck
The way your fingers slide down my throat
And slither like ice through my veins…
I thought I’d have outrun you by now.
I thought falling for someone
Would be enough of a distraction
To keep you out of my mind.
That thinking of Him wouldn’t leave enough room
For You to seep into my every breath.
I pray that one day my lips can reach the surface
And gasp for life again
Where I can thrive amidst the sea spray
Instead of you pulling me deep, deep down into you
For a deep rest.